Remember

Memory is a pinball machine--it messily ricochets around between image, idea, fragments of scenes, stories you've heard.
     Mary Kerr

Pilgrimages in life often aren't linear. They skip around, pause, go at full tilt, step backwards, peer into a void, become buoyant, sidestep, yet keep going toward some destination. The beginning may be hazy, the middle muddled and the end always a bit further. 

My spiritual pilgrimage follows a similar trajectory and I expect the end of the journey won't happen until I see " grass on the other side."